Saturday, May 9, 2015

Mother's Day

In just about 30 minutes, it will be Mother's Day here in Arizona.

I'm not going to go on and on about how Match is the best mom around and better than every other mom, even though you all are going to say yours are the best. Even though I could, because she is.

But as I approach my 35th year on this earth, I can tell you that she inspires me every day. 

I honestly can't think of a time in my life where I dreamt of being a mother. I don't think I'm one of those people who always knew that is what I was meant to be. I can't recall ever being the person who NEVER wanted children, I was just indifferent to the idea.

Don't get me wrong, I've thought of potential names for my unborn children. And I've thought about how I would raise them, but I can't say that it was my calling from a young age. It was just one of those things that I thought about occasionally.

But as I approach "advanced maternal age" and the thought of potentially never having children crosses my mind, I think about motherhood much more now than I ever have.

I hate to admit that there was a time in my life when I was pretty sure Match had no idea what she was talking about. I guess we all go through that stage with our parents, but each day that I live, I realize that she is pretty damn smart. 

My mom has been there for me every step of the way. She has encouraged me through decisions that were not easy, and cheered me on through my triumphs. She has dried more tears than I'm willing to admit, and kicked my ass into gear when I needed it most.

Today, there is not much I look forward to more than having a glass of wine (or vodka) with her on a Friday evening. Or just chatting on the phone after a shitty day.

Some day, God willing, I will become a mom, and I know that there is probably no way I will ever live up to her. But I also know that she has taught me more about life than I deserve to know and I am overly blessed to call her my

I love you, Match. I can't imagine life without you!

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